Caught in this head trip, the dark is depressin, lost in the essence caused by the tension
I tried to walk away but they blockin' the exits
Is this all just a lesson? Prolly not, I put this gun to my head, let me call the shots
I'm all alone, pissed drunk, drinkin' wobbly pops, am I lookin' for attention? Hardly stop
But I don't know 'till I get some. Bacardi and Coke, that's redrum
Oh, you think I got it made, now, guess what? Look me in my face, motherfucker, I been fed up
But you thought I looked happy...
Huh, holy fuck
Well, it's all your fault 'cause I guess you ain't ever looked close enough, but let's get off that, though
Please let me explain, before you tell me I'm sane
Like there's nothin' goin' on when there's something really wrong and you let it slip away
This isn't just a part time thing, this is every single day, this depression in my veins, so don't tell me It's okay, I'm goin' mental like a slave, and I can't ever get a say, and it's messin' with my brain
They told me "Calm down, you need to breathe deeper"
Cole, it's just anxiety, you're not gonna die, can I please teach 'ya?
See, what I got here is pills, Ativan and Xanax, and if you take one of each, you can hide all your problems, you can't stress
So I'm like.. "word"
I think I heard of these, though
'Cause every single rapper I know just does it for fun
When I need those
Every single night I'm in a cold sweat
Is it heart attack or stroke? I don't know yet
And then I'm overthinkin' every old text
And then I show up at the hospital, it's Cole again
They don't even take me serious, I've been goin' crazy, period
It's like I'm in the state of delirium, and y'all can't even see it
And it makes me furious
But that's fine, though, y'all can keep your eyes closed
And I'll consider takin' those pills that you gave me all at once
On the ride home
The only reason that I won't, is for my girl and my family
And my fans that'll hear this shit and get goose bumps, they understand me
Yeah
It's anxiety
I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down
What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out
Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me
I said it might just be me
I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me
I've been feelin' down and tho it might just be me
What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me
It might just be me
I take a look around and now it might just be me
It might just be me
I look around and now it might just be me
I've been goin' crazy and I've been feelin' down
What the fuck is wrong with me? My time is runnin' out
Everybody else just lives they life so care free, I blame it on the world, but now it might just be me
Yeah, it might just be me
I've been goin' crazy and it might just be me
I've been feelin' down and now it might just be me
What the fuck is wrong with me? It might just be me
It might just be me
I take a look around and now it might just be me
It might just be me
It might just be me