C-Lance

I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next
I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next

So I'll keep partying and drinking
Hardly even thinking
And that probably is the reason I'm like this (Like this)
And I'll keep partying and drinking
Hardly even thinking
And that probably is the reason I'm like this (Like this), yeah

At the end of the day, does it really matter?
I been smoking this weed, I been getting hammered
Last night was a movie, it was cinematic
You wanna be on my level, you should get a ladder
We're in a different bracket, I don't think you grasp it
I been living lavish, but I'm still a savage
I been trippin' bad and it's a disadvantage
But I promise you, I don't take a thing for granted
Let's bring it back to when I didn't have shit
Just a little a** kid tryna hit a half-cig
Tippin' back liquor 'til I'm feeling half pissed
Then I'd walk through the door and I'd get my a** kicked
Those were good times and I cherish those
I didn't give a f*ck if I was very broke
We used to raid the liquor cabinet with my parents home
And then we'd crawl out the window like here we go again
I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next
I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next

So I'll keep partying and drinking
Hardly even thinking
And that probably is the reason I'm like this (Like this)
And I'll keep partying and drinking
Hardly even thinking
And that probably is the reason I'm like this (Like this), yeah

I been lost in my head from the darkness within
Got nobody to trust like I lost all my friends
It's been hard to admit, so I harbor my sins
I been talkin' to myself with a bottle of gin
Might f*ck around and drink the whole thing in one sitting
And I'll throw a f*ckin' party alone, yeah
I know they hate me 'cause they see I keep on winning
And they know I got here all on my own, yeah
You try to teach 'em the do's and the don't's
Then all of a sudden you're in a room all alone
You get used and abused and they usually ghost
So you blame it on yourself 'cause you shoulda known
And that's just how it goes when you're selfless
They need help, so you help, you can't help it
Then they hate and turn fake cause they jealous
And they'll still try to say you were selfish
I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next
I been getting lost inside my head
Starin' at the ceiling while I lie in bed
I hate when I hear the truth, tell me lies instead
I guess I never really know where I'll wind up next, yeah

Source: https://songtexte.co/en/merkules-inside-my-head-lyrics-aa1581