Note to Self (Nikki Remix)
Man I swear to God I couldn't tell you everything that I done been through
Memories fade, things change and your friends too
Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe
Middle fingers waving, give a fuck if it offends you
I been gone a couple months, haven't heard from you
Maybe I been smoking too much and I just turned from you
She gon' disagree but bitch it ain't no mystery
My bank history don't count a single dollar that I earned from you
And it's hard for me to say it, but I live for it
Part of me remembers everything that I give for it;
Had to take some time to put together all the pieces
You can never take it back and I know it cause I wished for it
Whip imported, doors open up distorted
Shift floor it, till the brake pedal lose grip for it
Living reckless and forgetting to remember it
But I could give a fuck they say I live like a degenerate
This ain't what you came for, it started sounding different
Speaking from the brain started making all the difference
My predicament is what I really wasn't ready for
Used to drink heavy now I'm really drinking heavy more
Been together seven years it's time for me to go
I need to hit the road again its time for me to blow;
Swear I think about you all the time but down deep I know
That if I try to stay that I'll be headed 6 feet below
What will they say when I ain't coming through the door?
Maybe I was lost, maybe it was you I'm looking for;
I know it's hard for me to leave but that's the beauty of the war
Shit is breaking me down, straight through me to the core
I'm bout to make a few calls, we gonna pick up some trees
Didn't know me back then, I kept a trick up my sleeves
Watch me bend a few corners as I shift up the speed
Run game on your girl and get that bitch what she needs
Man this shit is a breeze, switch my income to g's
Came up from nothing, swear that I been one with steez
I was whippin' through the city, got my main bitch Nikki with me
She gon' hold me down with the shit until it comes to get me
At least that's what I thought, but then it went and hit me
Maybe you the reason that my bottle always running empty
Is it May or December? What's my name I can't remember?
" Baby to the Jay, don't you say it every song you sent me? "
" What's the matter, you forgetting where you came from?
Drugs and the liquor and the weed got your brain numb?
Tell yourself you doing good, shit you must be plain dumb
Let me take you back tell me where to book the plane from? "
But I ain't coming back, bitch I'm on my own two
Cut a bitch off, got the numbers in my phone new
Jesus couldn't save you if he had somebody clone you
Charging more interest than a motherfucking loan do
Who do you call when everybody's in the past?
I be staring at the walls, they don't answer when I ask
Like what the fuck I'm gonna do? If I don't think of something fast
Ill be laying 6 feet, buried underneath the grass and it's;
It's a cold game, she do this shit with no shame
Fell in love with it, get a rush from it (cocaine)
Fire propane, time to do my own thing
Sometimes, you gotta look away when the phone rings
I been doing good incase you might've wondered
I've been drinking all night and getting high these few summers
I was tryna make a living, 18 was on my own
Somehow, found a way and by 20 I was grown
Swear to God, I couldn't tell you everything that I done been through
Memories fade, things change and your friends too
Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe
Middle finger waving, Ima make this shit offend you
I'm breaking up with you, I'll be gone before you know it
Couldn't tell you how I feel, I made a song so I could show it
I could sell you with the words, all along I been a poet
Smell it in the air, that's cause I'm rolling strong when I blow it
I remember being young when I first met you
You took the air from my lungs and it hurts that's true
But at the end of the day I guess I paid that price;
If I got one thing to say, I hope you played that twice
Memories fade, things change and your friends too
Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe
Middle fingers waving, give a fuck if it offends you
I been gone a couple months, haven't heard from you
Maybe I been smoking too much and I just turned from you
She gon' disagree but bitch it ain't no mystery
My bank history don't count a single dollar that I earned from you
And it's hard for me to say it, but I live for it
Part of me remembers everything that I give for it;
Had to take some time to put together all the pieces
You can never take it back and I know it cause I wished for it
Whip imported, doors open up distorted
Shift floor it, till the brake pedal lose grip for it
Living reckless and forgetting to remember it
But I could give a fuck they say I live like a degenerate
This ain't what you came for, it started sounding different
Speaking from the brain started making all the difference
My predicament is what I really wasn't ready for
Used to drink heavy now I'm really drinking heavy more
Been together seven years it's time for me to go
I need to hit the road again its time for me to blow;
Swear I think about you all the time but down deep I know
That if I try to stay that I'll be headed 6 feet below
What will they say when I ain't coming through the door?
Maybe I was lost, maybe it was you I'm looking for;
I know it's hard for me to leave but that's the beauty of the war
Shit is breaking me down, straight through me to the core
I'm bout to make a few calls, we gonna pick up some trees
Didn't know me back then, I kept a trick up my sleeves
Watch me bend a few corners as I shift up the speed
Run game on your girl and get that bitch what she needs
Man this shit is a breeze, switch my income to g's
Came up from nothing, swear that I been one with steez
I was whippin' through the city, got my main bitch Nikki with me
She gon' hold me down with the shit until it comes to get me
At least that's what I thought, but then it went and hit me
Maybe you the reason that my bottle always running empty
Is it May or December? What's my name I can't remember?
" Baby to the Jay, don't you say it every song you sent me? "
" What's the matter, you forgetting where you came from?
Drugs and the liquor and the weed got your brain numb?
Tell yourself you doing good, shit you must be plain dumb
Let me take you back tell me where to book the plane from? "
But I ain't coming back, bitch I'm on my own two
Cut a bitch off, got the numbers in my phone new
Jesus couldn't save you if he had somebody clone you
Charging more interest than a motherfucking loan do
Who do you call when everybody's in the past?
I be staring at the walls, they don't answer when I ask
Like what the fuck I'm gonna do? If I don't think of something fast
Ill be laying 6 feet, buried underneath the grass and it's;
It's a cold game, she do this shit with no shame
Fell in love with it, get a rush from it (cocaine)
Fire propane, time to do my own thing
Sometimes, you gotta look away when the phone rings
I been doing good incase you might've wondered
I've been drinking all night and getting high these few summers
I was tryna make a living, 18 was on my own
Somehow, found a way and by 20 I was grown
Swear to God, I couldn't tell you everything that I done been through
Memories fade, things change and your friends too
Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe
Middle finger waving, Ima make this shit offend you
I'm breaking up with you, I'll be gone before you know it
Couldn't tell you how I feel, I made a song so I could show it
I could sell you with the words, all along I been a poet
Smell it in the air, that's cause I'm rolling strong when I blow it
I remember being young when I first met you
You took the air from my lungs and it hurts that's true
But at the end of the day I guess I paid that price;
If I got one thing to say, I hope you played that twice