[Verse]
Been in the loop and in motion
Tipsy off the the pain and potion
Nipsey and pimp c in my rotation
And y’know 214 is the location
Got used to feeling alone
Adapted to my inner zone
With pen pad and microphone
It feels good to have a silent phone
No distractions, just resting at home
It’s a blue sky but a bluer world
It’s pretty on the surface but sad inside
Women insecure about themselves tryna be the “perfect girl”
So their inner confidence rots and dies
Never needed a relationship
I just livе up to my problems alone and take ownеrship
I appreciated my co workers and partnerships
Who helped craft my lyricism and authorship
The sun is out but my mind is cloudy
Full of energy on the surface but my soul is drowsy
Don’t want to ask for much but I know I’m needy
Put an emotional band aid over my heart that’s bleeding
Trying to find answers out of a Bible I’m reading
Begging for freedom and constantly pleading
For help, love and spiritual feeding
I hope you caught that last line
Before I get into my pastime
Growing up, never had no one
My mom was always on the front line
While I’m home writing punchlines
Serving food for thought like the lunch line
And she always asked how I felt and I always said “just fine.”
Never had the lollipop or cinnamon swirl
And couldn’t buy madrè clothes or shining pearls
But she had my heart from the start and I dedicate this piece of art to her
Sun can be out and my mind will rain
Overloaded with stress and pain
Blood rushing through my veins
Hoping the weather will change
Begging for freedom but trapped in my own chains
Of sin
So I ask my kin to pray for me before I repent and try again
But it never works
I always told “the world will change without you
People will lie to you and doubt you. they will accuse and talk trash about you, but you can’t let them control your weather. that won’t make you better . We can over come this together. And I wish I can fit more into this letter.”
It was a letter my mom wrote sincerely
A letter I always checked yearly
A letter I always checked when I nearly
Ended my life within the storm
Wishing I was never born
Grew up in a family that struggled with alcoholism, drug use and porn
And I didn’t know what to do anymore
The best rosè arose from the concrete they say hm?
Even my bros couldn’t even convey their concern for me
Well no matter what the weather is
It’s important to keep your head high
Keep your eyes on the prize and at the sky
Whether you broke up with your girl
And if she was malicious and a churl
Just remember there is always a Son in a blue world