[Monologue]
Uh, there had been occasions in my life when I couldn't sleep, you know, there had been times I was worried about paying the bills or job related stress, but most of the sleepless nights come from dealing with anger issues with people. Usually pe-, people, um, that I felt have let me down or abandoned me, people that I thought I trusted. Um, I mean everybody's, you know, I had the same kind of experiences, um, you know. And its easy to spend all night rehashing the things you wished you said, or rethinking your arguments in ways that pack more of a punch or, or, more poisonous but, in the end anger only hurts you. And if the people I was arguing with weren't even there, then who was I even talking to? You know I think there can be two sides, um, to the reality that we live in. The first reality is that life is hard, brutal, and sometimes outright terrible. But the other reality is that life is beautiful, full of wonder and hope. But these, um, realities are both true, both of these realities are true. The question I had to ask myself was which reality was I going to make friends with. Not denying either one or pretending one didn't exist, but which reality was I going to talk to, and which reality was I gonna, which reality was I going to listen to, which one was going to talk to me