[Intro]
I never contemplaited from adolescence to a man
Why I'm so quiet, with little friends
Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Apparitions inside my head
I tried fighting off the demons
Until they showed me what I needed
Conjuring emotions and violent solutions
I let them burrow deeper and posses a part of me

[Verse 1]
Now I am one with the damned!
They're fucking tempting me!
The tension keeps rising!
Tell me it's alright to make wreckless decisons
Assert my vengeance!

[Verse 2]
I want to force them to feel what it's like to be
Still covered in the scars of past oppressors
Fortunately, I healed faster indulging in grief
Still, I'll never forgive what was done to me!

[Verse 3]
My escape is empty highways
A simple pen serves well as my weapon
After being held captive
Slightly considering death
Once one thing I loved was robbed from me
[Chorus]
Slicing a knife through the wrist was the first and final attempt
Leaving behind the mental abuse and emotional stress
I'm harmed, but finally free
When I think about it, I don't need help
I just inflicted scars to watch myself bleed
Maybe to realize how damaged I am internally
No longer supressing memories, the past had to be released!

[Bridge]
I'm not miserable now
Still you couldn't handle what transpires within my dreams
Incessant rambling, horrific crime scenes
If there was a god, he's punishing me
If there was a god, he's punishing me
For years of defiance and blasphemy

[Outro]
Where was my calm before or after the strom?
Where was my calm before or after the strom?
Even when I reach R.E.M. my mind is still at war
Even when I reach R.E.M. my mind is still at war