Marvin Gaye
Fear to Be sober
[Verse 1: Shiva]
Tell the truth in a world full of bliss
Tell the truth in my life i was looking for death
Years gone by it weren't good when we were kids
Give a proof for all the demons within
Let them fly around you put never hold your pen
Run around on your own at the end
Tell the truth wake up in heaven i end up here
Through all my life i have been running from fear
Thought it's nice until i keep running my tears
Tell the truth you feel better when you fadе
Lie to yourself keep a hunnid in the safе
Lie to your bitch don't tell her what have you made
Look at big shiva now he is holding a blade
Runway from satan he was looking for a mate
Lie to your bitch don't tell her what have you made
Lie to yourself keep a hunnid in the safe
[Chorus: Beth Gibbons]
I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
[Verse 2: Shiva]
My inner shit and i hide from that
She was upset that i didn't open up
Lots of back stapping turned me to a big shot
It's just some shit hit me in the right spot
Oo i can write some shit and finally open up
I see my homes getting beatn by some cops
I look around and thank god i didn't feel that
I didn't get back i did sell some patch
No it's not a cass it's just shit that didn't last
5 precent but i didn't take the charge
5 more minutes for me to spit some bars
Count 4 homies waiting for my downfall
Count 1 lil hoe waiting for my call
I had to duck it and i can't sell my soul
Already bought by me and the price is so tall
I can't stand shit but i will stand on my money and never fall
[Chorus: Beth Gibbons]
I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
[Verse 3: Shiva]
Mostly life is flawless lots of fake promises and lots of lost courses
Walking in shame and i'm stoned at the party house
N***as be faking and wants you to smoke an ounce
I be walking around trying to make it bounce
It was like okay until i can't move my mouth Fuck them claps n***a they're just clowns
Back on my head lemme go another round
Showed up in my life no one was around
Treat me more was special and i keep a bound
Stumbled on the grass on my off days
I was smoking off and i never pray
Treat your ass good if you do the same
Keep my soul with you if you maintain
Keep my heart around with my damn brain
You gotta be speical if you had my name
If you feel my pain
[Chorus: Beth Gibbons]
I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
[Verse 4: Shiva]
And kept my head with you like nothing can be changed
You gotta understand that i will do the same
Forget the bad start and try over again
It was so plain cloros start showing when i hold that thing
Kept real as always and i will never feel pain
Power over sun and i always raise the gain
Thinkin about my bad part that you have drained
And thinking over this again and again
Again and again it's all in my brain
Always keep it sane
Like a v saint
Like some big rain
Put you on my chain
Let you on my lane
Treat you like the main
If a n***a tried to diss you cut him And he will think again
[Outro: Beth Gibbons & Shiva &Marvin Gaye & YEBBA]
I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Anybody but myself
On the love i always insist
All good till she blow up the mist
Fuck that shit n***a now i'm so pissed
She playing games she need to be dissed
She doesn't exist she's a felling once I have missed
But no worries now i have been cleansed
Fuck missing my friends and i have been Ducking the trends
And now i put on my lens and jump in my benz And look up for god i think i look at myself
I sink i look at myself
Me on to the shelf
Woah-oh, oh mercy, mercy me
Oh, things ain't what they used to be, no no
Can I show my love for you?
If i set alone my demons they show
All that real fellings are just below
All the real ones moving so slow
And yes i know and i know i always keep it on the low