[Verse: Fukkit & Brando]
I'm either trapped in a pit of my indecision
Or free-climbing this mountain of doubt in a frigid winter
My ice box-cold heart frostbitten
And your love was the coat that covered up my blisters beneath the stitching
I was up for seven nights with bad intentions
I used to doubt all my friendships
I never doubted you not once and I meant it
You gave me meaning in a time I needed help making breakfast
You taught me how to be myself and, in specific, accept it
I couldn't speak a word of this language we spoke that I cherish now more than ever
And no, that's not a pun to be clever
Nothing is funny, now you not around
I keep this awkward smile on my face that does its job
Convincing people I'm around but not here mentally
Somewhere stuck between the broken pieces of our effigy
Sculpted with enough of the golden hope I had kept with me
Clutching like a forceps
Find me like a missing dog sleeping on your doorstep
Find me like a missing body waiting for its toe tag
I'm suicidal, fighting all these urges of a body bag
Just a contemporary nomad, I'm so mad
Feel like a old man, part me of died and I got cold hands
And know that you were the only home I've ever known
Grew up this way, been all alone my whole life
Repercussions of losing you plaguing my mind in the night when I write
Said give it time but have you looked at the price? Eh
Worst day of my life, you lost interest
I don't get this, the day you left I ain't dismissed yet
Dealing with everything at once and you got him? Hey
Promised me different, we ain't perfect but what is that?
But what is that? What is that?
What is that? Why you did that? (What is that?)
Why you did that? What is that? (You were my love)
Why you did that? Why you did that?
[Chorus: Fukkit & Brando]
I still want you by my side (By my side)
I think you don’t want me
I think I know why (I know why)
I still want you by my side (By my side)
I think you don’t want me
I think I know why (I know why)
I still want you by my side (By my side)
I think you don’t want me (By my side)
I think I know why (I know why)
I still want you by my side (I know why, by my side)
I think you don’t want me (By my side)
I think I know why (I know why)