Break Me Open

I used to believe in the sound

The sound of the ocean, an infinite current

To carry us

Now, there's a silence in the air

Equally infinite, but utterly desolate -

A desert hush



I packed up my old childhood

And threw it in the abyss

If someone would only dive down

And recover it

Break me open



I've got my crosses to bear

I'll be a husband, I'll be a father,

I'll be your friend

But don't hang me up all at once

It's best not to barter with how much

Your martyr will overstretch



With arms held out so wide,

You once nuzzled up inside

Now, they're padlocked across

This chest of old resentments

Break me open



(This morning has opened my eyes

These daily rehearsals, concentric circles

Of you and I -

I can't find the bullseye)



I fell down a well in my mind

And I can't traverse it

No, I can't reverse it to save my life

If only you'd throw down a rope -

But you can't be bothered,

You've got your own problems,

You've had enough



Not that I could blame you -

Okay, we both know that's a lie -

You shoulder the blame as I

Stomach the shame in this

Bottomless cavern

If you'd break me open



If you should ever read this,

It's not a cry for help

It's a plea for some far deeper need

We couldn't possibly fathom

Break me open