If I Had (remix)

[Verse 1: Rowlan]

I'm tired of life

Tired of biting my tongue

Tired of people judging my music cause where I am from

I'm the last hope that my town can imagine

I'm the one who shine through when everyone and they momma rapping

I'm sick of artists paying these shows to shine

When they backing vocals louder then their lyrics are live

Let's get real put the mothafuckin' mic down

I love a good laugh but I'm supposed to be on right now

So see me after and I'll peep out your freestyle

But they been recorded for atleast couple weeks now?

I really freestyle When I say It's off the head

So we can probably cypher but nine out of ten will end up dead

Naw, back to my city this shit is real

I swear you coming with me when I finally get a deal

I want to show my home town that it is possible

Word to this small community we see as an obstacle

I ain't impressed with how you live or how you talk

I'm focused on the lives of the crack babies we lost

This shit is sad cause my home ain't even a ghetto

But I've had guns to head and shots sang like falsetto

Say Hello to fear early

But death has always miss me

The Lord will always hug me

But the devil trying to kiss me

I'm sick of it, tired

Blast me in the mind

I bet a couple fans will miss me

But the world will be fine

So I'm gone tomorrow

I swear my heart is hollow

Cause of dike that swallow

That I refuse to follow

I'm not proud I'm ashamed of my past

But I don't regret a thing or wish that all my friends would last

I'm living proof that you can do shit alone

Just a sober lonely white boyStuck in a fucking zone

I'm on the bridge now and I'm taking off from Cape

And almost every rapper called the cops and they all claiming rape