Part One: I'll Rise To Die Again

[Verse 1: Ben]
My sweet lord was at the mobile home, softly crying
Painting nails, eating flesh, drinking defiled blood with everyone

[Chorus: Ben and Tony from Fond Memory Vacation]
I’ll rise to die again, I’ll rise to die again
I’ll rise to die again
You won’t find my body 'cause I made poor friends

[Verse 2: Ben]
Bloody lips, taking sips, in what i’m putting out now
Drinking ammonia, without anyone, mixed with my savior's tears

[Chorus: Ben and Tony from Fond Memory Vacation]
I’ll rise to die again, I’ll rise to die again
I’ll rise to die again
You won’t find my body 'cause I have no friends

Part Two: Prose Poem

[Spoken Word: Vic from MRKT Zero and Clementine Blue]
I'm in the zone again
Distancing myself from friends
Constantly forced to pretend
Wondering when this will end
(breathe, breathe, breathe)
Waking up with a headache on a warm day in April
Wondering when this shit will end
Pain
Torture
Please teach me how to live so that i may protect myself
Protect myself from this life with abusers and manipulators
(breathe) [together]
Breathe so that everything may be alright in the end
A deceased soul amongst the living
Without a care, and without a purpose
A broken heart, something is missing
But it’s nothing that money could ever purchase
Forgive me
Shield me
Love me
Blackened eyes and restless breath and threaded limbs
Mother said enjoy the pain that comes with bleeding laughter
I lied when I said my tongue didn't taste like bitter salt
(breathe, breathe, breathe)
Broken bones can only run away
The ocean drowns me every time
Silence spits me out pulls me under
(breathe, breathe)
Breathe