Swear, I ain’t tryna make this hard
I been lookin’ for another way
But it seem like weakness make me strong
I been Doctor Paradoxic Waves
Toxic ways, yeah
Pissin’ out a lotta toxic waste
Stayin’, this is mine, I’m doin’ good, I’m in a better place
Face, dab you up like “stay safe”
That’s just how we say bye but I mean what I say, aye
I really need a new shrink
Ironic that’ll help me grow
I ain't have one in like 5 years
Can’t really afford it though
Feel like my hurtin’ is a burden
I put so much on the ones around me
How much can their love shoulder?
Chasin’ urges, I just never wanted to be herded like those ones around me
Sheep to that phrase, well, that’s just the way it go
No, couldn’t be me
But there’s times that I tried and just couldn’t be free
Used to brag on instrumentals; “look at me, look at me”
Thought I had it figured out
Now I got patterns of doubt that make me feel so rookie to me
When I started see the truth’s when all you tough guys look pussy to me
Tryna explain me to myself, how should I put me to me?
In need of some me-time but I can’t book me for free
I’mma need a couple whiskeys on the rocks for the kid
And you don’t need to mumble with me
You don’t gotta say a feel, baby, you could keep it real
Cause I’m tryin’ get in your rear, who’s fakin’ here? Who’s usin’ who?
You ain’t lyin on you, you just don’t know yourself
But if I know me, tell me why I’m still here
I’ve been feelin’ weird lately
Yo, feelin’ real shakey
Yo, hope I don’t play me, no, no, no