[Verse 1]
To my second reflection, my brother, my blood
I never meant to neglect you but I'm too fucked from the drugs
You are the youngest of sons, the only one I love in this family
The man in me is there because of you bruv
To be honest it sucks to know you copy me bruv
I ain't a man you wanna be I'm just a wannabe bruv
And I know that you just wanna be loved
But you get constantly fucked over and let down for a bottle of rum
I'm so sorry to mum, for not raising you right
Instead of keeping you away from drugs I gave you the pipe
And made you hate on this life and now I look at you
With an understanding that it is my fault for the pain in your eyes
You've seen me confide to the blade of a knife and overdosing on meth
A pale face coming home late in the night
With gifts for you that I got from robbing strangers for ice
This is my life and without you here I'll take what is mine

[Hook: Tatu - 30 Seconds]
Carousels in the sky
That we shape with our eyes
X2

[Verse 2]
I used to have two older brothers and they were kings to me
My fucking hero's, nowadays they ain't fucking shit to me
Their whereabouts a mystery, unknown
I thought that we'd forever be a family but now never is love shown
These cunts know mum and dad both wanna see their grandkids
But you won't allow the love to grow I can't fucking stand it
Do you know what a man is?
A true captain goes down with the ship and never leaves his crew abandoned
The devils who you dance with, in the halls of mental solitude
Paranoid about what isn't even there is gonna do
I want nothing to do with none of you, you're both liars
I'm the fucking truth, you can't handle reality, I've seen it in your eyes when I was standing right in front of you
I'd never pull a gun on you, wave it in your face then make fun of you
You're a fucking coward with not much to lose
Only a vivd addiction to the drugs and booze
But that's nothing new
[Hook]

[Verse 3]
To my beautiful sister, the name on my neck
I got that tat cause when I die I want your name on my flesh
I'll wear your name till my death, represent my fam forever
The family I have left, strong and loyal stand together
Our roots deeper than buried treasure
We even look alike judge your cover by your beauty but insides no book of lies
I'm a book that has a crooked spine, I'm unable to read
Realities a fairytale to me
You've seen me frail and weak from all the drugs that I take
From telling you I wanna kill people to cutting my veins
Remember when it made you sick to see my blood on my face
You couldn't even look at me, like you were fucking ashamed
Except I'm sorry and I love you and I will until I'm chucked in my grave

[Hook]