[Intro]
Flowz one
Afraid
Check it
Yeah

[Verse 1]
Please I need help, I don't eat well
I have depression and my mind is that weak health
Every fuckin day I wake up and I see hell
That's why I wanna cut myself until I bleed out
I fuckin hate that I'm a negative person
As soon as I wake up i feel empty and worthless
And bipolar that's just scratchin the surface, imagine living your life without havin a purpose
I don't even know myself anymore, when I look into a mirror I see nothin at all
And bloodstains just cover the floor in most of the house where I've punched all of the walls
Because I have so much anger inside of me lost in my eternal search for sobriety
And the grip of addiction is tightening
But honestly the thought of reality's more frightening

[Hook: Lizz Wright - Speak Your Heart]
Why do you keep on whispering?
Talking with your face turned away
You say that love don't come easy for you
What makes you think I ain't afraid?
[Verse 2]
Yo, check it
I need to stand tall and not be afraid
I need to let go of what I can't obtain
Stuck in my past I'm trapped with the memories
Battling with myself it is I who is the enemy
An artist of war alone on the battlefield
My pen is my sword and notebook is my battle shield
It's been over six months since I've had a meal
I'm nineteen and weigh sixty kilos and that's for real
Fuck I hate this, but I made this person that I am it is my own self creation
So much hatred is flowing through my veins and I have cancerous thoughts growing in my brain
I can't take the pain, yo I'm going insane and I need a razor blade to take away the pain
Cause I can't face the day and I'm ashamed to say that for nineteen fucking years I have remained the same

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
Yeah
With these last drops of ink in my pen
I just want to say goodbye to all my family and friends
Because I hate being an enemy to them, I've hurt them my whole life
Maybe they'll feel better when I'm dead
And I'll tell you why I feel like this
I'll tell you why when I wake up I feel like shit
It's because when I wake up I've got nobody to hold
When I need to feel warmth and I only feel cold
All I need is somebody to understand the thoughts that are in my head and the person I really am
I need someone to hold my hand, somebody to hold my heart
Because without love and affection it's going to break in half
So what am I supposed to do, when you're so far away and I need to be close to you?
I lock myself inside a lonely room, grab a gun and a bullet then lock, load and shoot
[Hook]+[Outro]
Rest in Peace Allem
Fuckin miss you man
WIll always be in our hearts