[Verse]
It's so fuckin hard to write this, where to begin?
I'm so tired of watching you die from the cancer you drink
I'm not angry at you dad, I just can't handle this shit
You're my captain and I'm fucked if you abandon this ship
I wonder what life would've been like if mum never left
And if Luke and Jesse never split with monsters under their beds
I think our family is love at it's best, true colours shinin
In the presence of pain and the shadows of death
I remember the days you couldn't get out of bed
I had to make River's lunch with whatever food we had left
But that shit just made us stronger and grow up faster
So I have to left you know you aren't and never were a hopeless father
So many memories I cherish I keep hold in my grasp
But even when you leave this earth I'll keep your soul in my heart
It's cold in the dark, it has been since the day that [Rebel?] died
You lost your only friend, the only one you've ever let inside
I wish that I could fill the void inside your empty eyes and give you sight
But I don't know maybe life is better blind
I wish anxiety would step aside cause your the vehicle that depression drives and alcohol affects a steady mind
I wish that I had never left your side and moved away
Cause now I can't help you and with your health I am truly losing faith
I'll take my own life if it means that you could live again
And be a dad for River from the heavens I will give you strength