​killedmyself
​revealing hope
[Intro: Simon Sinek]
But there's no avoiding elements of loneliness
And I—, uh, unfortunately, the only thing that helps you through that
Is calling your friends and saying, "I'm hurting"
And they say, "Don't worry, we got your back"
And the only thing that helps you there
Is knowing that there's a light at the end of the tunnel

[Chorus: Lil Lotus]
And I know that I got to die someday
So I'll speed it up and blow out my brains
And all my friends say the same fucking thing:
"You'll be fine, close your eyes, you'll be okay" (I'm not okay, I'm not okay)

[Refrain: Lil Lotus]
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay (I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay (I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay (I'm not okay)
I'm not okay, I'm not okay
I'm not okay, I'm not okay (I'm not okay)

[Chorus: Lil Lotus]
And I know that I got to die someday
So I'll speed it up and blow out my brains (I'm not okay, I'm not okay)
And all my friends say the same fucking thing:
"You'll be fine, close your eyes, you'll be okay"
[Outro: Simon Sinek]
But you know, there are lot of sleepless nights
And there's a lot of stress and there's a lot of, you know
And sometimes your friends and family call you and go:
"Why haven't you done anything for a week?"
And you're like, "I wish—, I'm just hurting."
You know, just, "Please ask me if I'm okay instead of yelling at me"
Right
You know there-there—
It's unfortunately unavoidable, but like I said
The reason anybody gets through any of this is because
There are people in our lives that care desperately about our wellbeing
And um, when you disappear, they don't yell at you
They come up to you and they say, "Are you okay?"
And that, that alone, just somebody that you know
Is thinking of you, and um, concerned about you
It gives you the-the energy to fight on