PART 1: nothing really changes

[Verse:]

I don't really wanna live but I carry on
The only thing I got to give another scary song
I'm afraid of who I am when the night fall
Everybody think they know you but they very wrong

I know exactly how you feel I'm the same too
This world turned the blood flowing in my veins blue
You could never really hurt me how this pain do
I did this all to myself, could never blame you

Been tryna change who I am but this never works
Wish I had some better words, how you gonna win
When you know you wasn’t ready first?
Dying by yourself all alone man I bet it hurts, too afraid of failure
But a coffin with regret is worse

Digging through your purse for a pill
Used to be happy can’t reverse how you feel
Stripping on a pole gotta work for the bills
Then she went and lost her way tryna search for the trills, yeah

& I see that shit, we all looking for something
You wanna be that bitch
You got somebody who love you & I could plead that fifth
I got a body full of uppers because I need that lift; baby