Wrap my lies around my throat and choke me
I've broken so many hearts and I've killed plenty
I think my time is up cause' death keeps calling
Leaving voicemails saying that there's no purpose for me

I just want to kill myself so you can be happy
Just so you don't ever have to worry about me
You think that I'm a whore, well, baby, I disagree
Suicide is on my mind and maybe then you'll see

'X' carved on my heart to remind I ain't shit
I can't love myself
I don't deserve no bitch
'A' carved in my arm to remind me why I live
The reason I love
And the damage I did
'X' carved on my heart to tell me why I'm numb
Why I hate myself
Why I'll never overcome this sadness
'A' carved in my arm to remind me who I am
The choices I've made
And the reason I'm damned

Lost and so confused about this life I led
Why was I so mad
Why did I do what I did
And why the pain I've caused won't just come back to kill
To just come finish me off
To tell me this life ain't real