Anonymous
I’m Not Seen As Cis
[Verse 1 - Leo]
(I'm gonna say it)
Fuck you and your mother
You never got my pronouns right
I've got anxiety, my evil mind makes me stay up at night
My mother, father, sister, I love you but it's been goddamn years
You've known me long enough, the past is the past, don't start your tears
The awful names I've been called, the things I've seen and felt
Your narcissistic fascist complex; if you drank water, you'd melt
My school never let me use 'regular' bathrooms
(I need the unisex key, Sir)
My innocence was stolen, and my childhood is a distorted blur...

[Chorus - Leo]
I'm only harsh on myself
Cus people think I'm a chick
You think I'm fucking mental?
You're just a prick
I'll never care for your health
I hope you get hit with a brick
"Oh hey, you're that transguy"
I'm never gonna be seen as cis...

[Verse 2 - Leo, _???,_ **Leo Over A Voicemail**]
You make me wanna kill myself
But I tell myself "you don't wanna die like that"
But maybe I do, so fuck you
_{You're attitude towards me i'n' acceptable. Just 'cus you changed your name you expect me to be respectful?}_
**{Yes! Don't you hear me? Yes! Yes. I want that from you. I want you to respect me. It's been years, for fuck sake. For once, I need someone to talk to me without hesitating to say my REAL name. I could've fucking killed someone that night we argued for hours. Instead, I ran out to a field. Touched some grass and smelt some flowers. You don't know what I've been thro--}**
[Interlude]
Don't you get it? I don't want to die!
I say I do, but that's a lie
Fall to the ground, look at the sky
I'm FUCKING tired of asking you "why"
All I wanna do is cry...
All I wanna do is cry...
I guess that...this is...goodbye

[Verse 3 - Leo]
I've never been a girl, I've always been a guy
Just the thought of someone saying "kill yourself" makes it seem worth a try
The world is not accepting at birth, you need to learn to comply
Every single one of you who don't know how to control yourself
You're not as smart as you think you are, you tell me that i should calm
I'd say the r word, but that's a slur and you didn't even know that it was
And the words I say don't even rhyme, because I'm not singing. I'm talking

[Chorus - Leo]
I'm only harsh on myself
Cus people think I'm a chick
You think I'm fucking mental?
You're just a prick
I'll never care for your health
I hope you get hit with a brick
"Oh hey, you're that transguy"
I'm never gonna be seen as cis...